Ready for some change
It’s been a while since I’ve written you a letter. I guess life just caught up with me, and I needed some time. But I’M BACK. It’s weird not having you and Veerle around, cause you’ve always been in Utrecht with me since day one. (Seriously, how cool is it that the three of us met on the first day!?) But I’m coping haha, and I love that you guys keep sending me messages and photos so I don’t have to miss you too much.
I liked that you wrote a letter about your day, it sounds like you’re living a very much sun drenched life right now. It’s cool that you’re learning Spanish, I’d like to learn that too one day. I always wanted to learn Italian actually, but ever since this old man on interrail said to me that I had to speak Italian to come to Italy and then laughed at me, I’ve been kind of turned off about learning it.
So life in Utrecht has been just like it’s always been, but on the other hand it hasn’t. I feel like everything is still finding it’s rhythm, place, or something of that matter. A lot of people are traveling (srsly, I’m counting 6 right now), so I don’t get to see them, and also the courses I’m taking are not with the same people I took my courses with last year. So yeah, it’s a little bit different than it was. But I’m sure it’ll figure itself out. I’ve also been doing loads of fun stuff (let’s not talk about studying for my first exam), I went to a comedy night on Wednesday which actually had me laughing out loud (there’s this one joke that I cannot write on here, but I’ll definitely tell it to you some day) and a night out I had with Saskia turned out to be a whole lot of fun. I’ll start my singing classes next week, I’m taking a course which is focusing on singing with your whole heart. It’s about showing vulnerability when you sing and I’m very curious. Lately singing and playing the guitar (aka trying to get some sound out of this old thing that someone ran over with a car, but still works presumably fine) has become a comforting thing for me. It’s what dance has always done for me, but now, singing is doing the same. It’s kind of meditating, getting my mind of off things and stuff like that. I’d like to become much better than I am right now. How cool would it be if I one day could just play the guitar very easily and sing along to the music!!
What I’ve really realised again this week, is that I don’t necessarily like studying. At least, not in the way that I’m doing it right now. I even talked to my mom about it, and it made me doubt my decision to add an extra year onto my bachelors. I do like learning, don’t get me wrong. But the endless repeating of listening to a lecturer, reading articles and books and then reproducing it all on an exam just doesn’t do it for me. When do we get the chance to do something with what we learn or add our own insight into the mix?
Let me actually try to change, move or work on something that matters. That’s where I get my happiness and fulfilment from. Not from getting an A on an exam (that barely happens anyway lol). I listened to a very good Ted Talk this week by this guy called Adam Smiley (not kidding haha) Poswolsky. It really went into us millenials wanting to do something that matters. It also made me think of the paper that we wrote about millenials, I think it really adds to it. You should listen to it, which you can do by clicking here.
So yeah, I’ve been craving some change. And luckily for me, that’s going happen soon. I’ll be heading off to Vietnam and Indonesia in the middle of November to do some volunteer work and just to get away for a bit. And even tho I’m definitely going to miss my friends and family here, yesterday I realised that this is exactly what I need. I’ll see everyone again when I come home and I’m sure that I love to be back home after being away for a while. But for now, getting on that plane and going to a whole different side of the world is what I’m looking forward to most. I’ve done it before, and it brought me nothing but good. And now, three years later, I feel like it’s time for another adventure. On my own, sort of.
So I’ve been watching a lot of travel vlogs, been reading blogs and finding out things about Vietnam and Indonesia. It makes me happy, excited and a tiny little bit nervous. But a good kind of nervous.
I’m going to end this letter here, because otherwise I just won’t stop writing. Keep me updated on your Spanish life, I’m always happy to hear from you!